A POEM A DAY

I'm just happy to be here.

6/30: Springtime on a Sunday in Houston

Your mama tells me she used to feed the ducks
at Hermann Park with her mama, your grandma.
The oak tree where I kissed my-soon-to-be-wife
during our engagement photoshoot is still standing,
branches bending below, almost touching the earth.
Everyone is outside. Kisses exchanged at crosswalks
and sidewalks. I feel joy in every stop you take. The train
passes by and we wave. Your voice is music to the birds.
You want to walk everywhere. Even when your steps
turn into a stumble, you stand tall. Me and the sky,
both in awe. We forgot your sweater today, and when
the sun stands behind the shadow, your mother would
hold you close to keep you warm. I put my hoodie on your legs.
Halle and Luis join the adventure, our neighbors-turned-friends
take pictures of us as a family on a Spring Sunday in Houston,
a memory to memorialize this time. Time passes by and Mama and I
hold you, sometimes together, sometimes apart. My favorite part
of the day is when you and mama rode the carousel. I stand in the audience,
and watch your face spin with joy each time you pass us by.
Mama laughs and holds you close, and the carousel feels like time itself,
with each passing second telling me what the last second meant,
and what the next second could mean. Next time, we’ll feed the ducks together,
with mama holding the bread, like she used to do, all of us together.

5/30: Starfish

I think water is your element

In swim class, I hold your body

as the water holds us both

I used to hold my breath 

each time your head went

below water,
Now I exhale

like the bubbles you’re supposed

to spit out each time the water

goes into your mouth.
The smile on your face reflects
off the water

When you kick your feet,
it feels like you want to fly

swells and swallows
me whole.
I whisper, where’s mama?
And your body is a ship
set for shore, for True North

Mama is a lighthouse,

a silver smile through the storm.

My head so often

bobs beneath the water,

and I lose my eyes when

I hear your muffled voice

echo like a firework. I overhear another parent say,
you’ll never get this time back
The words rise and fall over me

like hands on a clock,

and when I look over my shoulder,

I see class is over.

4/30: A Backgammon Poem

The most shit talking I do on Earth is when I play Backgammon
especially against my brothers,
especially against my brother Brent,
who is the person who talks the most shit on Earth when playing Backgammon
and I won’t lie, he’s got game. But I’m the reigning champ,
not exactly an underdog, just a dog with a bone,
and as he likes to say, it’s all about the story.
For however long the gods of luck will allow,
we play through the joy and the pain.
It goes back to boyhood,
when my Dad taught us how to play
a game for your mind.
In the summer, or on holidays,
we’d spend hours in a tournament,
a tradition forged by time.
Classic big-brother, little brother
battling back and forth
through the generations of sibling luck.
I cannot help that my tongue was forged
in the fire of being the middle child,
chasing smoke like a chance to
skip a step in the chain of command.
Words roll out my mouth like dice on the board
I don’t always know how they’ll land
I don’t always know when I can play
the next game of backgammon against my brothers
So the best out 2 of 3 quickly becomes a game of 5
until it evolves into a full 7 game series,
one of us always
extending
the inevitable ending.