A POEM A DAY

I'm just happy to be here.

Tag: writing

17/30: Friendship is a saucer of soy sauce with wasabi gently folded in.

In my mind, I try to make time work for me,
as if my hands push each moment forward,
forging seconds to form long enough to
come together for something simple like dinner,
which will hopefully become a story we tell,
a memory we fold into
our wallets and slip into the pockets of time,
or throw back into the well like a wish for more.
It is Thursday in Austin,
a city of origin stories
Tonight, time was made
and I’m grabbing dinner
with Marshall and Pablo,
my best friends, old friends
still capable of making time
for new memories.
I try nigiri for the first time,
fatty bluefin tuna, king salmon, and yellowtail,
each piece carved clean from the body
They guide me through the menu,
I don’t know what I want, only
where I am and who I’m with
And isn’t this lovely?
Uncertainty is a gift,
The unknown can co-exist with truth
and what I know is true is the unknown still
makes me curious, makes the time
I have in any window compound like interest
when my cup is empty.
We take delight in every bite,
in the low light, blending into the
hum of conversations that surround us.
We disappear like a second order of dumplings,
losing track of time,
using our spoons to pick up the pieces
of each other’s puzzles.
A story as old as time.


 


15/30: Notes from A Parent-Teacher Conference

Mateo is so happy
Everybody loves him
He’s always smiling
He always say Hi to everybody 

He loves to say Hi
We call him Caballero and he reacts to it!

He understands!
He’s very smart, so smart
He learns very fast
He always repeats

He likes to participate in everything
He loves to paint side to side
He wants to participate in everything
He loves everything
He loves to dance
He loves circle time
He loves to sing and dance to
The wheels on the bus go round and round
He’s a very happy baby
Every morning he comes in a smile 

He’s playing real good with his friends;
He plays with everyone
Mateo loves books
“Un niño excelente”, they say

He loves everything.

14/30: April in Austin

You can spend all your time making money
You can spend all your love making time

-Take It to the Limit by The Eagles

The blue sky is a promise
I honor with all my might
Bluebonnets bend in the wind
I find myself walking under the Oak Trees, again

Time traveling is easy

Walk through the world

with your best friend
with nowhere to go
and nowhere to be
Rewind and reminisce.
What I carry

carries me forward
What I keep
has kept me
grounded
and searching
and still I return
to the present,
hungry for more time
with love and more love
and more love and
more time.

13/30: When you cannot catch the wind

I cannot catch the wind but I welcome

the invitation.
I surrender to what surrounds me,
the wonder within me,

the love that moves me.
I love a song called Let the Mystery Be
Another one called Set Your Spirit Free
Listening, listening, listening .
Isn’t the spirit a mystery?
One I cannot see, one I cannot hear

All week, the sun self and the shadow self

move through the music. 

I dig my roots up from the ground
to see how deep the soil

goes. What do I know other than

what I feel? I know pain, I know the names

of the ghosts I let go.
Past or present, the feelings are mine 

and mine only. I walk through a door 

and the breeze is gone. The wind goes on.
This is what I know. 

The sun rises, the shadows show.

We grow, we wake and we make meaning.

11/30: Pink Moon

The Pink Moon, Queen of Spring
Bluebonnets bloom under a pink moon
Wildflowers swoon and sway along the highway
Texas is a canvas of color
I see a flower and remember it forever.
Is the same true for you?
How much love exists
under a full moon?

10/30: Ode to the Pastrami Reuben at Roegels Barbecue Co.

With thanks to Russell, Misty, Bruce and the whole Roegels Barbecue Co. crew

Thursday is a special day
Smoke rolls into the sky
like a spire
I chase the smoke like a dream
come true, like a family heirloom
The gospel of low and slow
casts a holy shadow
I know what blows in the wind
I know what time gives
and how time takes.
The Pastrami Reuben is a gift
time gives, made by hands
that take what was given
Some days, I show up too late,
and I am still grateful
What I want isn’t always what I get,
and I am still grateful
What I receive is a recipe
made with love and smoke
I’m learning the lesson of letting go,
no matter the teacher.
Good things come to those who wait.
When I reach for my plate,
I trust my fate.
When Thursdays come,
The Pastrami Reuben is an offering too
tender not to fall-apart.
The bark, a piece of art.
I offer all of my senses to this moment.

5/30: Starfish

I think water is your element

In swim class, I hold your body

as the water holds us both

I used to hold my breath 

each time your head went

below water,
Now I exhale

like the bubbles you’re supposed

to spit out each time the water

goes into your mouth.
The smile on your face reflects
off the water

When you kick your feet,
it feels like you want to fly

swells and swallows
me whole.
I whisper, where’s mama?
And your body is a ship
set for shore, for True North

Mama is a lighthouse,

a silver smile through the storm.

My head so often

bobs beneath the water,

and I lose my eyes when

I hear your muffled voice

echo like a firework. I overhear another parent say,
you’ll never get this time back
The words rise and fall over me

like hands on a clock,

and when I look over my shoulder,

I see class is over.

3/30: A Brief Reminder to Love Yourself from the Abandoned Chili’s on Westheimer

With thanks to Anis Mojgani

Take a deep breath.
Are your feet fixed to the ground?
Now is a good to time to announce
to the rest of the world that you
have not forgotten to love yourself.
The marquee of the Abandoned Chili’s on Westheimer
looks like a chalk board a teacher forgot to erase
on the last day before summer vacation.
I read, Love Yourself as I pass pay.
Anis Mojgani once wrote Speak every time you stand so you do not forget yourself
and that line has lived in the Abandoned Chili’s of my heart ever since
I was a teenager watching his poems on YouTube on my mother’s bedroom computer.

I am a father
now
in this timeline, driving down Westheimer during lunch time
My son, Mateo, is pulling words from the soil like flowers
delivered to our front door to tell his mama I love her.
Mateo has never met Anis Mojgani or been to Chili’s
But I know he loves himself
When Mateo meets a mirror,
the mirror meets Mateo lips
My boy kissing his existence
Love in his lips even without
the words to describe it
Guess that’s why I’m here
To hear him speak
every time he stands so
I do not forget
how to speak for myself,
which is
how a father-poet
loves himself.

2/30: A Migration of Love

With thanks to Evita Tezeno, Minnie Riperton’s “Lovin’ You” and Sofia

No one else makes me feel the colors that you bring me
is the title of the painting before me
on my birthday.
A husband holds his wife in the kitchen of their life,
and the color of their love brings me to my knees like a
proposal
I prepared for over and over for months.
The gallery is full of exhibits invoking love languages
and I think of all the languages I want to tell you love you
and the only two I know now.
Any love poem I write for you sometimes feels like a love poem for Houston.
It is my wife Adela’s birthday too.
Adela wears blue crescent moon earrings
I remember her buying years ago.
Sitting on the patio of Tiny Boxwood’s,
the song Blue Moon croons through the morning breeze
Joaquin wishes me a happy birthday and tells me
his peach tree waited to blossom for me, assuring
This is a good omen
A chocolate croissant kisses my lips then my love’s
This is a good omen
Adela sees an orange bellied robin descend
and run along the ground until its wings woke up
This is a good omen
How to measure what tethers us to tenderness?

We are looking for elephants from the Great Elephant Migration: A Coexistence Story
in the middle of Hermann Park, walking past the Oak Trees
where I kissed Adela years before for engagement photos
On the way to see the elephants, we run into
a woman who is also looking for the elephants
I see a sign about the Migration of Love and think
what is love if not movement between two places?
What is grief but the refusal of love to migrate to the great beyond?

The woman is named Sofia
Sofia offers to take our pictures under the pink rose arch
inside the McGovern Centennial Gardens
we pass on the way to see the elephants we’ve never seen before,
when suddenly, Sofia asks, do we know where the elephants are?
And her path becomes our path
She tells us, it is her birthday today
And her path becomes our path
She confides, her husband died three years ago,
and if she talks too much about it,
she will start to cry
And her path becomes our path
Sofia was kind and warm, wandering and alone
until she found us too
her grief, migrating to love
our love, migrating to love
The three of us moving together
on our birthday, alive under the sky
coexisting
with love and grief
as the candles on our cake.

1/30: Depositions and Ducks

The voice is the first instrument.
I just finished using my voice in a deposition,
cross-examining a witness, pulling sound out of silence,
and weaving together a testimony.  
Mateo is learning how to talk,
how to tune, how to invite sound
under the roof of his mouth
and offer a home to the words he wishes to come out.  
We work on repetition and annunciation.
Senator Cory Booker just used his voice to give
a 25-hour filibuster to speak on behalf of the voiceless
I hear a voice inside my head and we get along
long enough until silence stumps one of us.
I am learning the sacred art of noticing

                  (and rising to speak
                  (and raising my voice from the well)

My father is taking in the small moments
He shares a video of a bee in his backyard
descending into the orchid flowers in full bloom
and the gravity of this love tethers me to the screen
I watch a video where a son holds his mother’s hand
on the golf course, and says, Slow down, mommy,
I want to enjoy this moment.

Is this my revolution?

A moment is time tapping against the infinite
This moment is a clue

I’m gathering clues
like words under the roof of Mateo’s mouth.

This morning, pink roses preside
over the concrete wall of my office parking lot
and I see another bee find the sweet nectar
of everything happening now
I’m taking in the small moments,
a circle is drawn around me until it becomes
A line I bend to my will
or an apple falling from the tree and down the hill
into the mirror of where I meet myself
like another moment, another clue

The voice is the first instrument to ask, who are you?

I’m rewinding time,
I’m learning to be a dad for the first time.
Beginnings beget beginnings.
I bear witness to an origin story
on the way to lunch
Another moment stole my senses
like a bee buzzing in sugar
like the earthquake of joy out my boy’s mouth
A parking lot plot unlike any other:

I see and hear a Mama Duck with her sixteen ducklings
in orbit, marching into a bush, jumping into the dirt.
The consequence of my curiosity leads to the discovery that
this Mama Duck brings her ducks out here once a year,
to show them how to walk, how not to get lost.
Are we ever alone in any moment?
My friend Alex says that this is the Universe reminding me to tune in.
So I do.
Right now,

Mateo’s voice is a box he loves to unpack,
a little duck learning to quack.
When I hold him, he sometimes will whisper a word
to himself like he wants to make a secret memory
Mateo is creating moments I want to rewind
If I pause time, I might lose a moment
I won’t avoid the future, I’ll just save it a seat.
The joy of being alive is as simple as writing my life down
as I’ve lived it
as I’ve loved it
every infinite moment
tuning me into an instrument.